When I entered my freshman year at Waynesburg University, technically speaking, I was a psychology major. Nevertheless, when I stepped foot inside a building by the name of Buhl Hall, I discovered something magical, a world unlike I had ever encountered. I discovered the classroom of Jill Moyer Sunday. She helped mold, shape, prune, and shake up an ability I for years took for granted: the ability to create via the written word. And ever since I traded the safety of her presence for a new start, a life in Madison, Indiana, I've felt lost.
The summer before my sophomore year, I felt my words slowly withering away. By the time fall had arrived, the fire that used to so vibrantly light my fingers on fire, scorching beauty across page or computer screen, died out. I hadn't a match to light it once again. I felt that without the walls of the classrooms that shaped me, without the mentor who so gracefully built me up, I was nothing. Somewhere, deep down, I felt as though I had abandoned the best thing that had ever happened to me, and that because of it, I no longer deserved to feel the warmth and comfort that creation had gifted to me.
Until the day I met Dr. Barbour. On April 29th, Kathy Barbour walked into the Fiction and Poetry Workshop, mop and broom in hand, a boombox on her hip. Her pale blue eyes danced within her sockets, as she told us that before we could begin May term, we had to be initiated. In order to find success throughout the course of the class, we had to "constantly risk absurdity."
And so she tossed us kitchen utensils, mops, brooms and the like, and told us that we had to make music with them. She danced around the room to a groovy, island tune, twirling the mop as though it were a loyal dance partner. This went on for another twenty minutes or so. Yes, we felt completely stupid. But little did we know, Kathy Barbour was a genius.
What she was doing was lowering our inhibitions, easing our tension, erasing our expectations. By God, she broke the ice with a jackhammer of crazy. But it did the trick. By the second day of class, we were pouring our words out to one another, eagerly drinking up one another's styles, rhymes, and rhythms.
I'd like to thank Dr. Barbour. She opened my heart to writing, again. I never had to stifle the fire in my heart that begged and begged me to pick up a pen, and write. And she reminded me of something I had long forgotten during the course of my nearly two year hiatus; my talent doesn't come from a place, it comes from me.
So without further ado, here's a poem I wrote this morning, while sleep still clung to my lashes. Enjoy!
“A
Front Porch Kind of Night”
Purple petals flow against
her lobes,
glowing strands of auburn
hair catch her pearls.
She digs her bitten
nails into the floral scarf
wrapped around her
neck, a steady arch.
The stem folds into
her glasses,
a brilliant shade of
blue.
She gazes out between
the bundles of brush, huddled together,
a
pair of cardinals ruffle feathers,
uplifting
melting flakes of snow. Shuffle
their feet across the slush, beaks nibbling, lustful lips
longing to wander
into full, icy hips.